The Future

When times seem stressful, I like to write. I have so many things bouncing on the inside of my mind, I know I wouldn't be able to sleep right away. Clearing my head for a bit might help put those idea to sleep. I have written out all my ideas, as to not forgot them. I've been thinking a lot of the future right now. I'm nervous, anxious, and a little excited. I've gotten a job now, and the first thing I want to do is get a raise within 3 months. I have a goal of becoming an assistant manager in 1 year as well.I know that if I set my mind to it, it will happen. In other parts of my life, transferring to SSU is a big part. I've gotten letters from the Music Department, and I plan to go there tomorrow to talk to them. If they are busy, or not available, I'll try on Tuesday. I'm interested in a Liberal Arts Major, and I think I want to do composition. The thing that keeps coming up in my mind is that I might, or have made the wrong decision on what to do in college. I love music no doubt, but I also love using computers. I always wonder if I should have become a computer major instead. I bet I would be saying the same if things were backwards. What scares me most about becoming a music major is getting a good job after college. Yeah, I know its hard to know what will come at me in the future, but I feel so much pressure to "get a job" after college, that I feel that music will not take me anywhere. I think this is more me thinking that I'm just going to be a broke artist on the side of the street when I graduate. I think I need to talk to people like at SSU and the JC in the music department, my teachers and such, to find out what they think I can do. I've always been confused to think that if I get my major in music composition, that I can only get a well paid job in music composition. Then I think, there isn't any music composition work out there, and now I'm screwed. See how I'm thinking? That's why I'm so, okay maybe scared, about getting this music degree. What am I going to do after college? But, I don't think it will be that bad. There are so many cool things I'm interested in. Sound, and recording and just some to name a few. I really just love working with audio. I do love playing, but I haven't had much time it feels like. If I really love playing as much as I think I do, I know I need to give myself more time to play. I know these years are hard, but I try to do my best. I really feel that I'm doing a good job going through this all. And speaking of doing stuff, with all that I have done for myself in this last year, and looking up to certain people, I wonder if I could be a motivational speaker. It's something that I have been playing around with in my head for the last few months. Just an idea I have. I really feel that I connect with people well, and I feel I can use that talent in a way to help people, and to make a good and fulfilling living for myself. Maybe add some music to that, and I'm ready to party. So I leave you with this, write your goals down people!

Book I'm reading:

Eat That Frog!: 21 Great Ways to Stop Procrastinating and Get More Done in Less Time